he has changed

wow it has been a long time i didnt update my blog lol bcs of i've forgotten my password. and now finally i can log in back yey ok i just dk nk share dgn siapa lagi ugh fcking hate this feeling. i feel like crying. oh god, i'm still into the same guy. yes, hes name muhd izz. i just dont know how to feel anymore. bcs he's not the old one. he has changed, alot. i miss the old him. i miss how he treated me more than princess like i'm the most important girl in his world. but now dah lain, bcs i buat dia berubah jadi mcm ni. i'm sorry, muhd izz. i missed him, fcking missing him. i fcking regret what i've did to him last 4years. yes, stupid me. ah shit, i feel like i dont deserve him bcs he is too good for me. hes deserve someone better. yea i love him, i get jealous thinking that someone else could make him happier than i could but at the same time im happy for him. even its hard for me to see someone i love with other girl. but if that make him happy, then im happy for him even it hurts. ive to accept the facts. yea anis. 😌 let him be happy with his choice. and actually ive to let him be with his new gf dulu. bcs he looks so happy tgther with his new gf. i guess yg buat dorang broke up because of me. yea me fcking bad. ugh i dont know what to say anymore. i feel bad.